Friday, January 23, 2015

JERSEY GIRL: A RESPONSE (THE LONG VERSION OR: IF YOU POST IT AT THE RED HOUSE, I WILL READ EVERY WORD YOU WRITE UNTIL THE DAY I DIE BECAUSE I LOVE YOUR WRITING, THOUGH I WISH YOUR PRODUCTIVITY WASN'T DUE TO MY SINS, NEGLIGENCE, AND MISDEEDS ) :)

How arrogant of you,
I thought, to think
she might still
be looking. And yet
I was looking myself,
so who can tell?

And yes, I worried
about how it looked
because I knew
how sharp she was, 
how perceptive,
even when she was wrong.

As she is now.

I worried because I know
how she tortures
herself, how her fertile,
romantic mind makes
those exponential leaps,
how her imagination sizzles
with images, scenarios,
with passionate and fiery
possibilities.

In some ways, it’s one of
her best qualities.

But even though 
I’d been thinking
silence 
was best, 
having already caused her 
more than enough pain and heartache,
I could not bear the thought
of her experiencing even more 
because of me, especially
when there was no basis for it.

So please make no mistake:

there are no
good morning messages
from New Jersey
(I swear on my life)
or from anywhere else

please know
there is only a single
set of moon & stars
still hanging on the universe
of my office wall
& floating through
the cosmos
of my heart.

and when the
bathroom door
closes, I promise you,
New England has nothing
to do with it. 

And further
make no mistake:

Because no yellow star arcs
its way across the sky
each evening
tying here to there,
I am left grieving
and lost on the edge
of this lonely coast
with no tether
to the Earth.

and further make
no mistake:

the most romantic thoughts
I have right now
(1/22/15)
concern
An unfolding rose
A floral print comforter
An empty park in the almost Spring
And those slatted blinds

And do not even
make the mistake of 
not knowing 
that there is so much
that I miss.

Like all of it.

But even in the midst
of my own private
and painful emptiness
I still know there
are times
(like now)
when
the most awful choice
is best, and really, the
only thing I've learned lately
is that there is
no good way
to break a heart.




JERSEY GIRL: A RESPONSE (THE SHORT VERSION)

I swear on my life:
there are no
good morning messages
from New Jersey
or anywhere else
for that matter
only a single
set of moon & stars
hangs on the universe
of my office wall
& floats through
the cosmos
of my heart.
and when the
bathroom door
closes
New England has nothing
to do with it. 


Monday, December 8, 2014

LOOK CLOSER

There is a world

beneath our world

where the windchimes dance

and ring

where silver sparrows whisper 

the eulogies of dying leaves

where the nearby traffic 

grumbles its way into its

smoggy oblivion

where the orange tree

stands at mute attention,

but casts a daring look

at the nearby swarm 

of hovering bees.

There is a world

beneath our world

where roses hum like a choir,

their outstretched petals raised

in reverance, their 

harmonies pure and tight. 

It is a world where the wind, 

like a genie's carpet, 

flies in and sails by us, 

fluttering the hairs on our flesh, 

and where  the sun

when it moves but an inch, alters 

the multitudinous shadows.

It is a world beneath

our world that is always

alive, but is only truly

witnessed in the silence

of our profound stillness.

Thursday, December 4, 2014

JOHN (Draft #5)

You dropped to 
the kitchen floor
and once again
no one could
save you, not even
the wife you kept
in the closet with 
your useless suits.
You used to say
don't hold back
give it to me
straight
then lie to us
with what was
left of your tongue.
At the memorial,
those of us
who were loyal
and loved you gathered
at your stone in remembrance;
we passed 
around the flask,
and swallowed each 
burning drop
like a kind of Communion. 
Smiling, we saved 
the last for you, pouring 
a hit right into the vase 
with the flowers. Later, 
we told stories 
as we watched the red, 
annotated balloons 
lift into the sky.
You know, John, 
I'll give it to you 
straight one last time: 
we loved you as well
as you let us,
said goodbye
as best we could.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

JOHN

You dropped to 

the kitchen floor

and once again

no one could

save you, not even

the wife you kept

in the closet with 

those useless suits.

you used to say

don't hold back

give it to me

straight

then you would

lie to us with what

was left of your 

tongue. At the

memorial, those 

of us who were loyal

and loved you

gathered at your

stone; we passed 

around the flask,

swallowed each 

burning drop

of the borrowed whiskey

as if it was Communion. 

Smiling, we saved 

the last for you, and poured 

a hit right into the vase 

with the flowers. Later, 

we told stories 

as we watched the red, 

annotated balloons 

lift into the sky.

You know John, 

I'll give it to you 

straight one last time: 

we said goodbye

as best we could.


COMMUNITY THEATER

Who knew we were 

performing for our

neighbors, who themselves

were actors in 

the show we were watching

on the flat screen in

our living room?

Was it only our piercing

imagination that 

made this art possible

or is every edifice

on the cul-de-sac

a facade, lit by

leikos or fresnels?

Sometimes I think 

winter is a type 

of intermission

all by itself and 

the rain  is nothing

but applause.

LAUGHING WINTER

amused 

by the chill

the rain 

chuckles

in the 

alleyway